Life

Oh gosh, things are interesting. I think I have a chance of getting the required GPA, but I'm not sure. It'll all fall into place soon though.

I feel lacking. I haven't been studying the bible at all recently, nor have I had much time to engage in good Christian fellowship and discussions recently. I'm sinning more often, in ways that I had stopped recently, and I think it's because of the lack of time I gave to God recently. Yeah, I need to fix that. God is there to help me, but only if I look to him for help.

Darryl and Thomas came to town today, and we went and got boxers for No Pants Day. I feel ready now. My only problem is… Well, I'm not modest. I lost that a long time ago, when I realized that nudity doesn't matter. It's one of the few things that I admire in my friends from Arlington. We realize that it's more comfortable to wear less, and don't paw all over each other just because a bit of flesh, or even a "taboo" area is showing. But, even though I feel that way, I've never been an exibitionist. I don't get a kick by having people look at me. So, the thoughts coming go like this. (By the way, Sarah, if you don't want to hear about stuff, stop reading and go to the next paragraph. You have been warned.) I'm not exactly unendowed, but it doesn't show when I wear jeans or anything. But, I tried on the boxers that I will be wearing, and it shows. There is a large lump in my front, and nothing I can do to hide it. I wouldn't mind it showing, if I was in the company of people who didn't care either. But I realize that some people will care. It just feels kind of odd. But, I'm going to do it anyways. I would like the world to take on the same view as me, and by not putting any care on how I dress, even if for a day, I hope that I might make a message.

If you believe the same way I do, then please take part. Maybe we can start to fix the world, step by step.

Or something.

Finals are here. Praise be to God? Or something like that. I guess I'm ready.

Cast

• Me: Young and hopeful Christian looking for the right path set forward by God
• Darryl: Friend and fellow enjoyer of pants-less-ness
• Thomas: Same as Darryl, but larger
  

Grrr

I am really pissed at Comcast. The modem they gave us sucks, and won't work properly. It keeps losing packets, and that's just bad. Then, when they say they will fix it, they don't show. I'm angry.

And, almost passing. I got a seventy on the most recent cal exam. If I can do well on the final, I may be okay.

There's more to say, but I'm not much of a talker. Or, something.

Cast

• Me: An angry user of Comcast, who can't give it up
  

Baptism and God

So, I feel as though I'm being put through a lesson here. I've had problems in school, and now it's up to God to have me stay or go (because really, right now, anything I do won't matter). So, I've had to put a lot of trust in him for that. And, I'll admit, I worry, but I realize that in the end, whatever happens will be what should happen. Also, everyone I know is getting baptized. Again. I mean, come on, they are two ahead of me now! Really makes me think on myself, and the fact that I need to be baptized.

In other news, stuff.

I got four hours of sleep last night. And will probably get a similar amount tonight. Darn all these late night baptisms.

So, google now has a calendar feature. I have my schedule up, so if you ever want to know what I'm doing on a given day, you can easily find out. Just ask me for my calendar info, and I'll give it out.

Cast

• Me: Searching soul looking forward
• God: The eternal and loving Father, who does what is best for his children
  

Prayer needed

Pray for me. That I will pass and be able to come back to UTD. Or that I will at least be given a third chance.

Cast

• Me: Prayerful soul in need of help
  

Busy times are a comin'

Oh gosh, I have been so busy lately. And will be for a while. I have so much stuff that I do, and not enough time to do it. Almost everything I do is scheduled a week in advance, and I hate it. I love being spontaneous. But, I'll go with the flow. At least the semester is almost over!

Today was a great surprise. I got to see one of my friends from Arlington that I hadn't seen or talked to in almost forever. Ida came up today, and apparently she had run into Darryl on Saturday, and he tried to get some contact info for me. So, she did one better, and offered to bring him up to UTD today. Oh man, it was great seeing him again. He's not graduating this year, but I'm rooting for him for next year. Then, if I'm still here, hopefully he will come up to UTD, cause it's the place to be! So, while he was up, I took him to a class, we went to the mall, and had a fun time. Darryl, come up again soon!

Ok, so, for important events, lets make a list:

1. Next Saturday, the twenty-second, is my guitar recital. Nothing big, but if you want to, then come. It's free, and afterwords I plan on hanging and going out or something. So, yeah, come to it. Sarah is gonna be in it too.
2. That same weekend, Sunday, is Focus Banquet. I need a date. So, who wants to be my date? Eh? Eh? Oh well, even if I don't get a date, I'm still gonna go, it'll be fun.
3. The week after is final week, and praise be to God for them coming and going. I only have to take two finals, and that makes me happy.
4. May fifth, the first Friday in May, is No Pants Day. And everyone should celebrate. I'll be going out with some of my men friend next Saturday (the day of my recital) to Wal-Mart to get some nice boxers to wear, so if you want to join us, just let me know, and we will bring you along.
5. That weekend, May fifth through seventh, we are planning on going camping. If you are interested, let me know. It will be fun, and we will have a camp fire, and all will be good.

So, yeah, things are good, work is well, and I pretty much love life right now. Sorry about the drama posts, those are over for now. They come occasionally. I'm still not over my bad grades, and am kind of worried (AKA Pray is needed), but I'm taking it better now.

Cast

• Me: Exuberent young busy boy
  
• Ida: Mother of said busy boy
  
• Darryl: Enjoys hashing, and saying "Put your serious face on"
  
• Sarah: Friend and fellow guitar player
  

I lie

I lie. A lot. If you see me, and I seem to be messed up, I am. But I'm not going to admit it, because smiling at accepting and laughing are the only ways around it. I'm messed up now, and I lie a lot, but it's ok (there I go lieing again).

Oh, and I had my bike stolen.

Oh, and raise your hand if you are probably gonna be kicked out of UTD next semester *raises hand*. Oh crap, am I the only one?

Cast

• Me: A UTD failure (probably)
  

Bad night

Ugh. Who feels like crap and doesn't want to go to class?

Who will end up going to class anyways, because I'll get beaten up if I don't go?

Yeah. Me.

I had a bad night.

Cast

• Me: A tired and grumpy student
  

Broken

I broke today. I gave in, and started looking back on my life tonight. (Sarah) Stoehr today made a comment on my life with girls. And I know I'm stupid. But I looked back today, and I really don't know what I saw in (Sarah) Barker. She gets on my nerves. But, I don't know, there was something there. Of course, it was probably the (near) sex, but still. When she wasn't pouty, or being a butt, she was fun to be around.

So I found an old picture that she drew a while back. When we were still dating, and there were only small signs that something was wrong. I really hate getting attached to people and then breaking it off. I'm doing it with Thomas now. He and I aren't married (like I was to Barker), but we are still breaking up, little by little. It makes me sad. Almost to the point that I want to call him up and go drinking with him. But, I won't. I just want to.

And so, for all those people out there dating, I wish you luck, and give you a warning. Don't get to attached, you never know what will happen. I dated Barker for two years. Didn't change things. Don't be immoral with the person, set boundaries (like no making out (it's one of mine, I know that it would lead me off the good path), not being together alone at night, and not obsessing over each other and spending every waking hour with/on-the-phone-with each other), and don't make your life focus around the other person. I broke all those, and realize now that they are pretty good rules. I had people telling me them, and didn't listen though, so I don't expect anyone else to though. But this goes out to all of you (Stoehr, Matt, Keshia, Eric).

And now I am going to go off and look up more on Barker, and e-mail her, or something. Maybe just go cry about my life, and wish that Thomas would come with a liter of amaretto.

Cast

• Screw this, I don't feel like it right now.
  

Supposedly

So, supposedly (according to me), a lot of interesting things have happened recently. But, I'm lazy, and tired, and won't go over them all. Probably ever. Deal with it.

Work is good though. I'm doing more than bussing; that's good, because doing nothing but bussing tables was killing my back, but I'm getting better now. I'm an official server, and thought that I had a rash from something at work yesterday. Turns out I was wrong, it was a sunburn. From my next story!

Yesterday Alena invited all her Core people to come eat together at the pub. So, I came, and we then decided to go get free hamburgers outside. It was a beautiful day, and people were hanging outside in the sun, so we decided to also. I was only in the sun for less than two hours, but I burn so easily that those two hours were enough. So, I am nicely tender on the arms now. But, it gets better. The sun burns are totally worth it, because the people who were giving out hamburgers also had kites, and so I got to fly my first kite of the summer! It was great fun. I want to go have a picnic and fly kites again. Oh my gosh! This Saturday is play day at the park! I should get a kite and fly it there!

I got new shoes! Ox-cut Chuck's, two pairs. One is a hunter green, and the other is black with white skulls, almost pirate like. On the pirate shoes, Ida got me some awsome skull shoelaces, but they were too short, so I will just use the black ones that they came with. For the green ones though, I plan on getting orange laces to support my shool colors. It'll be fun, or something.

Eric's roomie, Anthony, has a 360. And he went and bought Perfect Dark Zero today. All in all, I think it was a worthy purchase. The single player is decent, and the multiplay is fun. So, good stuff there.

I'm tired, and have a busy day tomorrow. More talking later.

Cast

• Me: A crazy tired insomniac with too much stuff on the mind
• Alena: A buddy from Focus and a Core, also an enjoyer of sunlight
• Eric: Guy with the name Eric, and only mentioned because of his relation to the game mentioned above
• Anthony: Guy with the name Anthony, and only mentioned because of his relation to the game mentioned above
  

Highlights…

… of the past week include:

• getting my work cut short on Wendesday because they didn't have someone for me to work under
• getting a good grade on my Gov't exam (low nineties?)
• eating ice cream on the roof of ECSN with Eric, Sarah, and Matt (G)
• watching Ice Age and Ice Age 2 (the sequel is the better one)
• failing my abbreviations quiz for SnS miserably
• finding someone else who enjoys the band Cursive (and is Christian none the less (I now feel less guilty))
• not getting enough sleep tonight since I'm going to be getting up at seven thirty so I can help with the A/V at Northeast Church tomorrow

Cast

• Me: Oh so busy worker with too much on the brain
• Sarah: Ice cream hater
• Eric: Ice cream neutral
• Matt: Fellow ice cream lover